The song explores the numbness and disorientation of psychological shock, using images of collapsing floors and free fall to show reality slipping away. It also portrays fate as an overpowering force that leaves the speaker feeling trapped, helpless, and emotionally disconnected.
Recorded in the 2010s, finished 2022.

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“Trigger Protocol” portrays fear rooted in the past turning into anger, hatred, shame, and a growing loss of emotional control. The repeated descent and explosive imagery suggest a cycle in which suppressed pain breaks outward destructively rather than being processed or released.
Created in 2022.

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“Break” depicts someone being emotionally abused and controlled until they feel poisoned, trapped, and unable to endure any more. Its recurring image of cracking and breaking captures the gradual collapse caused by repeated pain, powerlessness, and betrayal.
Created in the 2010s.

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“Forsaken” explores the cruel disconnect between what the heart still expects and what the mind knows to be true, portraying grief not as a single moment of loss, but as a reality one is forced to rediscover over and over again. More ➔
Created in 2022.

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“Alone” portrays someone completely isolated in a vast, dark space, where every attempt to find safety or light is swallowed by fear, exhaustion, and instability. The collapsing ground, storm, raft, and circling sharks turn that loneliness into a sense of being constantly threatened and slowly consumed by it.
Created in the 2010s.

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“Numb Cry” portrays someone overwhelmed by pain to the point of emotional numbness, where tears continue even though the person feels detached from their own emotions and surroundings. The fixed stare, blurred perception, and sense of falling suggest a shutdown or dissociative state in which suffering remains intense even when feeling itself seems to disappear.
Created in 2022.

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“Limp Bloom” portrays people crushed by despair, anger, and a sense that they never mattered, with the image of limp flowers symbolizing lives that are still present but emotionally withered. The repeated gloom, tomb, darkness, and final breath create a bleak picture of hopelessness in which suffering feels inescapable and any possibility of recovery seems lost.
Created in the 2010s.

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“Ashes and Scree” portrays someone left emotionally devastated after being judged, hurt, and stripped of what they needed, with rubble and debris symbolizing the destruction left behind. The speaker feels trapped and wounded, but the ending suggests a turning point: realizing the damage has gone too far and choosing to find a way out.
Created in the 2010s.

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“The Whispers in the Shadow” portrays cruel words, lies, and hidden hostility that linger like echoes, feeding fear and anger even after they are spoken. At the same time, it pushes back against that darkness by urging the listener not to become spiteful themselves, but to resist the cycle and choose to be better.
Created in 2010s.

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“Cursed Throne” portrays someone trapped in a world of lies and betrayal, where that deception fuels relentless rage and pulls them deeper into pain, isolation, and inner darkness.
Created in 2022.

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“Recursive Spiral” is a song about a poem that is itself about another poem, creating layer after layer of self-reference. As that recursion continues, the original meaning becomes more distant, turning the song into a reflection on how poetry can echo, distort, and still preserve meaning through repetition.
Created in the 2010s.

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“Doubt” centers on uncertainty itself: something can appear beautiful, pure, or even healing while simultaneously feeling dangerous, poisonous, or impossible to trust. The deliberately strange, fragmented images reinforce that instability, making the song feel like a mind circling around a choice without ever reaching certainty.
Created in 2022.

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“Death Awaits” confronts the inevitability of death, emphasizing that no matter how a person lives or struggles, mortality is unavoidable. Its decaying flowers, graves, gloom, and repeated warning turn that certainty into a dark meditation on accepting that every life ultimately ends.
Created in 2022.

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“Death Meets Life” explores death and life as parts of the same cycle, where decay can nourish new growth and one ending can exist alongside another beginning. At the same time, the speaker applies that cycle personally, choosing to keep breathing, moving forward, and trying to return to life despite feeling broken down.
Created in 2022.

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“Break Through Trauma” portrays someone recognizing how toxic behavior traumatized them, withdrawing for self-protection, and beginning to establish boundaries instead of remaining passive and numb. The song then shifts toward recovery, with the speaker rebuilding self-worth, resisting the past’s hold, and gradually moving toward healing despite lingering pain.
Created in 2022.

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“Phoenix” portrays someone burned down by shame, blame, anger, and painful memories, yet repeatedly trying to rise again from the emotional debris. The phoenix imagery turns destruction into renewal: even after being reduced to ashes and dust, the speaker keeps reigniting the flame and pushing toward recovery.
Created in the 2010s.

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“Marble of Earth” centers on a small marble once given by someone deeply loved, which becomes a tangible anchor for memory, safety, and emotional strength after being rediscovered years later. The marble does not magically fix anything, but it reconnects the speaker with love, hope, and the will to move forward and reclaim their life.
Created in the 2010s.

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“Different” portrays someone emerging from grief, lies, and instability by letting an old version of themselves fall away and beginning to grow into someone new. Through seeds, roots, trees, and a new dawn, the song frames change as a gradual process of becoming freer, stronger, and more stable after being uprooted.
Created in the 2022.

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“A New Dawn” portrays someone who has been deeply wounded, devalued, and stripped of their identity by another person until they become numb and emotionally immobilized. The turning point comes when they finally cut contact and leave, making the “new dawn” a symbol of escaping that harm and beginning a life beyond it.
Created in 2019.

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“Loss Tribute” is a direct expression of grief after the death of the speaker’s wife, focusing on the shock of receiving the news, the lack of a proper farewell, and the permanence of her absence. Despite trying to continue living, he remains overwhelmed by missing her and finds some comfort in hoping that she is now in a better place.
Created in 2022.

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This is a musically derailed version of "Break Through Trauma" which ended up much more funky.
Created in 2022.

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